Living Behind the Veil

I'm often asked what I wear in Afghanistan and what it's like to wear a veil. It's freedom. Freedom to have a bad hair day, freedom to arrange my chadar to conceal the curve of my breasts and backside, freedom to not be an expatriate for a little while. It means freedom to hide even on the street from the Afghan men's eyes which seem to strip me naked.
When I relax my shoulders and walk less purposefully, less confidently, my eyes downcast and covered by sunglasses, I pass for an Afghan woman. I hear the men whisper in Dari, "Is she a foreigner or local woman?" I chuckle but am silent. On the street, I'm also a free target....freely exposed to groping, sexual innuendos whispered to me as a man bicycles by, free to have stones thrown at me, freely seen as no one's wife, daughter, sister, mother, friend, or boss. I step inside my gate, and remove my chapan and chadar. Now I'm someone's boss, motherhood returns to me as little steps run to greet me, and I receive a kiss from my adoring husband. Now I'm free to his loving and gentle eyes which know and enjoy my curves, free to once again be under the protective umbrella of being a wife, mother, friend, colleague, boss, niece, sister, daughter, woman.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

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We see the injustice, hear the wailing cries of the oppressed,  but we respond with milk-toast theological answers.  What does it matter if God loves, when your loved one is being raped then her heart literally torn out, or when they are being beheaded and heads displayed, all in the name of some supreme god?   That god seems angry, and if God is loving, He sure doesn’t seem to show it, or appear to care about certain (ethnic) groups of people being slaughtered wholesale. 

We minister His healing with the ministry of our tears mingling with theirs, with our presence in their grief, and with practical love to clothe, feed, and warm.  But when pressed, we MUST have answers which work, which are Good News for the hurting, which bind their broken hearts and heal the deep wounds.

What kind of God DO we serve?   Let’s not emasculate Him. Let’s not share only half the Gospel.   

He is Divinely angry at evil.

“Who can stand before His indignation? Who can endure His anger? His wrath is poured out like fire, the rocks are broken asunder by Him” (Nahum 1:6).
 
But the Lord is the true God; He is the living God and the everlasting King. At His wrath the earth quakes, and the nations cannot endure His indignation” (Jeremiah 10:10).

God’s anger is not unpredictable or irrational; He is not given to fits of spontaneous outbursts, his is not a blind explosive force.  His anger is an instrument of response to man, it is purposeful, a secondary passion, not a ruling passion.  His anger is not at all like human anger, but more like righteous indignation. 

Righteous Indignation: “the emotion aroused by that which is considered mean, shameful or sinful, it is impatience with evil, a motion of the soul rousing itself to curb sins.”1    If God has righteous indignation, and we are made in His image (Gen. 1:26), then it is godly to be righteously angry at the evil being perpetrated and not to simply present only His love. 

The foundation of all Biblical thinking is  “The Lord is good to all, and His compassion is over all that He has made” Ps.145:9.  But as a righteous Judge, righteous indignation is part of Him. “God is a righteous Judge, a God Who has indignation every day (Ps. 7:11). God’s concern is the prerequisite and source of His anger.  Because of His care for man His anger is kindled against man. Anger and mercy are not opposites but correlatives. His anger is conditional, and when man repents, he relents. He is both slow to anger and His judgment comes too quickly.

As a mode of His emotions, His anger may characterize the anger of the Lord as “suspended love, as mercy withheld, as mercy in concealment” (Jer.12:14-15, Lam.3:31-32). Heschel continues, “Since justice is His nature, love, which would disregard the evil deeds of man, would contradict His nature. Because of His concern for man, His justice is tempered with mercy. Divine anger is not the antithesis of love, but its counterpart, a help to justice as demanded by true love.”We must remember that God’s anger is both preceded and followed by God’s compassion (Jer 12:15; 33:26).

His anger abates at our repentance.  Our we praying for the repentance of our enemies? Are we seeing even the worst evil doers as people we could be? Are we moaning and seeing the situation as hopeless?  That is not the way the prophets saw it, and it isn’t Biblical.  Now is the time for calling on evil doers to repent (Jer 26:13) before the judgment of God’s anger falls.  

As we experience and understand at ever deeper levels in our soul the One True God in the totality of His being we are more effective ministers of His love to a dying and hurting generation. 


  1. Heschel, The Prophets Vol II page 63
  2. Ibid, p.62-63 
  3. Ibid, p.77