I'm sharing a confessional I keep in my Bible to read and pray through on a regular basis. It comes from a Russian saint of the 1800's.
1. I do not love God.
1. I do not love God.
For if I loved God, I should be continually thinking about Him with heartfelt joy. Every thought of God would give me
gladness and delight. On the contrary, I much more often and much more eagerly
think about earthly things, and thinking about God is labor and dryness. If I
loved God, then talking with Him in prayer would be my nourishment and delight
and would draw me to unbroken communion with Him. But, on the contrary, I not
only find no delight in prayer, but even find it an effort. I struggle with
reluctance, I am enfeebled by sloth and am ready to occupy myself eagerly with
any unimportant trifle, if only it shortens prayer and keeps me from it. My
time slips away unnoticed in futile occupations, but when I am occupied with
God, when I put myself into His presence, every hour seems like a year.
If one person loves another, he thinks of him throughout the day without ceasing, he pictures him to himself, he cares for him, and in all circumstances his beloved friend is never out of his thoughts. But, throughout the days, scarcely set aside even a single hour in which to sink deep down into meditation upon God, to inflame my heart with love of Him, while I eagerly give up twenty-three hours as fervent offerings to the idols of my passions. I am forward in talk about frivolous matters and things which degrade the spirit; that gives me pleasure. But in the consideration of God I am dry, bored, and lazy. Even if I am unwillingly drawn by others into spiritual conversation, I try to shift the subject quickly to one which pleases my desires.
I am tirelessly curious about novelties, about civic affairs and political events; I eagerly seek the satisfaction of my love of knowledge in science and art, and in ways of getting things I want to possess. But the study of the law of God, the knowledge of God and of religion, make little impression on me, and satisfy no hunger of my soul. I regard these things not only as a nonessential occupation for a Christian, but in a casual way a a sort of side-issue with which I should perhaps occupy my spare time, at odd moments.
To put it shortly, if love for God is recognized by the keeping of His commandments (If you love Me, keep my commandments, says our Lord Jesus Christ), and I not only do not keep them, but even make little attempts to do so, then in absolute truth the conclusion follows that I do not love God That is what Basil the Great says: “The proof that a man does not love God and His Christ lies in the fact that he does not keep His commandments.”
If one person loves another, he thinks of him throughout the day without ceasing, he pictures him to himself, he cares for him, and in all circumstances his beloved friend is never out of his thoughts. But, throughout the days, scarcely set aside even a single hour in which to sink deep down into meditation upon God, to inflame my heart with love of Him, while I eagerly give up twenty-three hours as fervent offerings to the idols of my passions. I am forward in talk about frivolous matters and things which degrade the spirit; that gives me pleasure. But in the consideration of God I am dry, bored, and lazy. Even if I am unwillingly drawn by others into spiritual conversation, I try to shift the subject quickly to one which pleases my desires.
I am tirelessly curious about novelties, about civic affairs and political events; I eagerly seek the satisfaction of my love of knowledge in science and art, and in ways of getting things I want to possess. But the study of the law of God, the knowledge of God and of religion, make little impression on me, and satisfy no hunger of my soul. I regard these things not only as a nonessential occupation for a Christian, but in a casual way a a sort of side-issue with which I should perhaps occupy my spare time, at odd moments.
To put it shortly, if love for God is recognized by the keeping of His commandments (If you love Me, keep my commandments, says our Lord Jesus Christ), and I not only do not keep them, but even make little attempts to do so, then in absolute truth the conclusion follows that I do not love God That is what Basil the Great says: “The proof that a man does not love God and His Christ lies in the fact that he does not keep His commandments.”
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