I Promise to Hate You

ODE TO A NARCISSIST

The Crazy Cycle begins again

Once the Applause has died.

The doors have shut, and he is alone

With her.

Relentless arguments, unpredictable moods, outbursts of anger,

Condemnation, twisting of words, of truth, Threats

Inflicts pain worse than bruises.

She can’t leave,

Insecure, Unsure, Agony, Guilt, Fear

Depression, Anger.

So much anger.

Accusations, slander, gossip

He destroys her word-by-word

His tongue like knives

Isolating her from help.

Power over another,

He-over-Her

Sick-not-love, Un-Christlike,

Physical, emotional, spiritual paralysis.

Silent, the Church stares

At the faces of women masked

Hiding the pain and slow descent into hell-on-earth,

Abused by their Pastor-Husbands,

Tortured by Christian-Husbands,

Un-defended Women,

...and does nothing.

Guilt and Gladness twist together

At his death.

She loved him.

But,
She is finally free at last

To Breathe

To Move

To Be.

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Wikipedia Description of Narcissistic Behavior

To the extent that people are pathologically narcissistic, they can be controlling, blaming, self-absorbed, intolerant of others’ views, unaware of others' needs and of the effects of their behavior on others, and insistent that others see them as they wish to be seen.
People who are overly narcissistic commonly feel rejected, humiliated and threatened when criticized. To protect themselves from these dangers, they often react with disdain, rage, and/or defiance to any slight criticism, real or imagined.